life will be better in spring

I know of a girl who

- makes the same birthday wish every single year. But as she grew up, she learnt that that's why it's called a wish. Wishes, will remain as wishes.

-smiles even when her heart is broken, and tries to brighten up her friends' day even though she can't do the same for herself.

-flirts with guys, and act cool like she always does it. But hell no, she don't. It's just to make herself feel valued, but at the end of the day, she knows this is just plain cheap.

 -is in a love-hate relationship with her family. All her life she has been planning to escape. But when she's finally given the chance to, she choose to stay.

-can repeat one particular song the entire day and gets her heart shattering all over again each time she listens to it.

-wants to break down so desperately, yet she don't allow herself to cuz she know there are people out there suffering even worst treatment than her.

-always talks a lot, to make her friends feel at ease. Yet, she's so afraid that she's a nuisance.

-is pretty shameless about herself, self-praising herself always in front of her friends, but deep down, she's overconsumed by insecurities.

-badly wants to go crazy, sing all the songs in the world, dance her day away,love like never before, but the scars reminds her of the consequences she might have to face. And then, she became too afraid to step out of her comfort zone.

-revolts at the sight of her reflection, but still she will look into the mirror, just to make sure she looks at least decent.

-has a wadrobe of pretty clothes, but each time she tries the clothes on - tube dress, tank top, mini skirt - she goes hyperventilating. Those fat arms, rough thighs, straight waist line.

-genuinely thinks she's ugly, not for the sake of hearing reassurance from others; This thought is really deep rooted inside her.

-wants to be wanted.

-feels vey very inadequate.

-feels that her existence is superfluous.

And above all, I know of a girl, who's struggling, and still fighting.

Do you know the girl? Cuz this girl I know, is becoming a girl that I USED to know. I feel like I don't know her anymore.

We all have got that one song which feels as if it was written and sung for us. This song <3