Like a fantasy bubble that never pops (:

*NERDY HOTTIE!
Hey hey. I ain't any nerdy hottie. that's what i AIM to be for the next two years. Studies + looks. How wonderful life will be ~ My name is Eemin aka Jacqueline. Jacqueline is just for those ignorants who doesn't know the pronounciation of my magnficent name. Alright, I am pretty shameless, but i call it humour and confidence. So yeah ~ I can be pretty irrational, insane, hyped up. Yet, it's just facades over facades. You never want to know the down side of me. Sometimes, I get lost in myself(s). Don't get me wrong. I aint any emokid either. I am pretty much an optimist in my pessimistic world. At least, I hope for the best I'm weridly humourous, pretty inperfect in my own perfect way. Good luck! For I'm a tough book to read. i must say, I'm nothing much on firt sight; but i'm definitely not your average girl when you know me. Oh oh and oh, I AM ADDICTED TO MUSIC. MUSIC, IS MY LIFE. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MUSIC. ANY CURE?
-That's me
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The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away



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life will be better in spring

Saturday, November 5, 2011 || 2:00 AM

I survived, again. It's yet another miracle. Another opportunity. To set my life right back on the track and redeem all the promises I had made to my loved ones. This time, I will cherish this chance. Trust me. Watch me. I can; I will; I must.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

It wasn't until post promos period had I understood the meaning behind this song. I thank my teacher for announcing that I am most likely retaining. The emotional turmoil i went thru these few weeks was indescribable. But I began to view life in a different perspective. I began to realise that results aren't everything. What's wrong with retaining? Retainees' aren't fucked up; It's the society's mindset that is screwed. ["For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."] This enlightenment even went to a point that I already accepted the fact that I am retaining. Of course, despite all these, when the reality is set before you, it's daunting. That overwhelming relief that swept thru me when i saw "ADVANCED"...I can feel my tears.Tears of appreciation. I thank Him, for He taught me how to fear, and then he relieved my fears, and this made me even more appreciative of the grace that he bestowed upon me. Thank You. Really. Truly. Sincerely.

OP in a few days time...Just a few more days. Gotta hang on. I just wish I can find the confident speaker wthin me back. Sigh.