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Hey hey. I ain't any nerdy hottie. that's what i AIM to be for the next two years. Studies + looks. How wonderful life will be ~ My name is Eemin aka Jacqueline. Jacqueline is just for those ignorants who doesn't know the pronounciation of my magnficent name. Alright, I am pretty shameless, but i call it humour and confidence. So yeah ~ I can be pretty irrational, insane, hyped up. Yet, it's just facades over facades. You never want to know the down side of me. Sometimes, I get lost in myself(s). Don't get me wrong. I aint any emokid either. I am pretty much an optimist in my pessimistic world. At least, I hope for the best I'm weridly humourous, pretty inperfect in my own perfect way. Good luck! For I'm a tough book to read. i must say, I'm nothing much on firt sight; but i'm definitely not your average girl when you know me. Oh oh and oh, I AM ADDICTED TO MUSIC. MUSIC, IS MY LIFE. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MUSIC. ANY CURE?
-That's me
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The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away



I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone


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Insecurities.
Monday, October 17, 2011 || 11:11 AM




[Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most(like tonight)

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times ( 给我的承诺是即兴的嘛。。。)
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most (but you left)

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close]
And tonight I just can't stop listening to this song. This time, I told you. I said I can't sleep. Frankly. Desperately. I know you are tired. Goodnight then. Just don't make any promises to stay by my side when I need you the most.

为什么每个人劝我不要把内心的针扎与痛苦收藏在心里 要我与他们分享。。可是当我终于鼓起勇气说出了心里话 你们当初答应过会陪在我身边的承诺 全都通通作废?他  她 他们 都一样的。证明我当初反驳你们的立场 证明了我当初为什么宁愿选择把自己的心情隐藏起来 更加证明了谁谁谁说过要在我最需要他们的时候一定会陪我度过这一切。。都是在说空话。  可是也要感激你们。。因为你们 我渐渐地学会怎么再一次地把我的心封锁。。

I love Chinese (: As in blogging in Mandarin. It's such a beautiful language.. ^^ I loathe the idea of studying it though. I think education destroys the essence of languages.

Promos is over. Getting back results on.....SIGH. I am not being some emo pessimist shit, but I am tuning myself to embrace the idea of retaining...I don't deserve decent/promotable grades for the lil effort I have invested...

PW. PW. PW. PW. Hell yeeah my life is so consumed with PW ): It's not a life to even speak of. PW is really pointless, useless, worthless. But despite saying this, I still need to ace for it! :P I mean MOE's perception of PW is way in contrast with the students and the importance they place in it...Well, guess I have to accept my fate.. GAWD. Just want to get over PW and....I don't know. Lol.

I miss you a lot. If a hug can represent the intensity of my longing for you, I can hold you forever in my arms. This is some cheesy shit but wtv. Lol. Sigh, but why aren't you here.. i wouldn't have slept if you were still awake. No matter how tired I am. This selfish part of me wish you would do the same for me. But..then, I still want you to sleep. SIGH.This few nights...I really need you. But you aren't here with me. You choose the bed over me. Lol. I don't know what to make of that. sorry..就这几晚 就这几晚 让我有如此幼稚又不体谅你的想法。。对不起。。。。

有多少次你不顾一切地来看我来陪我 我知道的 可是我真的不知道最近到底是怎么了 怎么会怪你呢  怎么会说你没搭到承诺呢 我知道 我真的知道 我没忘记 也不会忘记 对不起 我最近说做的一切让你失望了吧 就拿我上一段所说的话 还有前几段的说你没陪我的话 这些话 你看了肯定很失望吧 对不起 就连我自己都对自己很失望。。对不起。。。

so as i typed this post, i came to conclude one thing : I really love you. <3