life will be better in spring
Wednesday, April 29, 2009 || 8:38 AM
i dun wish to be tied dwon by anything. esp frenship. tt's the worst scenario i can think of. n oso love. studies is stressing the f--- out of me. i had no chioce over whether studies cold tie me down or not. it is thren hadto acceot it. i an opt out of fenship and definitely love. i just feel that this way my life is happier. though i am very willing to change for -. thn again, not really. just dun wan to think of anything else le.
jus wannna be happy. simple yet complicated.i am no doubt at the
end of my tether now. been screaming at ppl for these two days. just hope malay exam cn get the hell out of my life tmr. will be glad to do anything just to get it out of my
exploding head now. gosh. i cnt breathe. literally. not asthma though.
cool down. shitto. may god or whoever forgive me for entertaining such thoughts. cant hold it any longer. saw it, n i wanted to break down if not for the account my family is still wide awake. i tot. i tot. i tot. in the end, i am just deceiving myself. i hate myself. curiosity kills the cat and it is killing me now. damn.
just thn, i realise, i duno some of my frens le. or not some. is a lot. Y. Q. P. K. H. J. X.and they dun me either. forget it. i shall not even try to get to noe hu they are. tired of all this. i nvr tot once biten twice shy could be applied on lau ee min. bt it did. though i was bitten a dozen times. all this stress is getting me nowhere but hell.
i fed her to the wolve. how worst can i get?wanted to find some ppl to tok to, bt like i mentioned, idk hu they r anymore.
e world is gg on a revolution. all of a sudden, i se strangers not my frens. i believe they feel the same way too. i admit i 've changed. for the worst. and i m not gg to do anyhting abt unles sth happens. n it ;ll happen
25000000 yrs later. so well.
i won't cry. it is just a small matter. forget about it.