life will be better in spring

whoo! finallly cn update le ^-^ thursday.. worst day of the week :( Not that i choose to be unhappy everyday. Is unhappiness that managed to catch up with me no matter how fast i run or fly. Ytd's incident is yet another evidence of my inefficiency in handling tasks given to me. Yet another prove that whatever i do is worthless, useless. This is getting me nowhere. I really tried my best. But still mistakes have to crop up. I am very tired already, and yet this had to happen. Life is really a joke on me. Ya, i should cry. I can only have myself to blame. And oso, what happened yet again showed me the cruelness of this reality world, yet again reminded me that it doesn't pay to be a kind soul. Things had to happen all at a go isn't it? Ytd was one perfect example. I am tryin my best. Very very best. But just tinkin of all tt had happened ytd, esp the scolding part, i had to let free my tears. Somehow, everything in me is tired. In the past, i m just worn out. Now, i m reali fatigued, inside out. I can feel my heart wrenching. When is all this going to stop? It's really really painful. I see no hope in doing so much and in the end, gettin nth positive in return. N instead, negatives. fri... nth much happen? oh yea. nice discussion wif jess @ mt lesson >.< yea. i m pro-choice for american values to be implanted in singapore. singaporeans too conservative le? lol. hope my blog wnt be spammed :P lalala sat... JSS CULTURAL NITE CONCERT!! fun? haha. nice. bt thn someone came to get tic frm me thn still use a veri what-the-hell tone tell me faster. zz. i tried my best to run le lo. ._. * i m nt tokin abt mr zhong hor* i tink my performance still cn be btr de. jiayous! next challenge: SYF! sun.. went to chinatown again~ almost gg there on a weekly basis? lol. thn at nitewent to marina barrage ^^ e nite scenery is so damn nice lo. thn tot i saw -? lols. idk.

sat... JSS CULTURAL NITE CONCERT!! fun? haha. nice. bt thn someone came to get tic frm me thn still use a veri what-the-hell tone tell me faster. zz. i tried my best to run le lo. ._. * i m nt tokin abt mr zhong hor* i tink my performance still cn be btr de. jiayous! next challenge: SYF!

sun.. went to chinatown again~ almost gg there on a weekly basis? lol. thn at nitewent to marina barrage ^^ e nite scenery is so damn nice lo. thn tot i saw -? lols. idk.

Mon.. Slack at home lo.

Tues.. Went out wif pat n josephine >.< aft tt, josephine left. Thn me n pat went t sci centre there de mac to eat and study. Thn did some observation :P YEW! History tutorial ~ hÀHÁ. Funny sia. E way i stared at.... LOL. Thn we saw Jss media club ppl. Nth lo. Oh ya. Saw aaron too. Kq's fren >.<

wed.. At first wan go jp de. But thn no one go wif. Thn i saw CHUNG XUE NI at e busstop xD tok crap (: wad else? Haha. Went t her hse n ate porridge? Lol. Boastin myself throughout xP Haha. Thn ask her how Jvs ppl r doing lo. Thn home sweet home.

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- syafie : wa.. tag so many. i call tt spamming ~ haha. tnx for tagging xD
-ying : relinked (:
-mengchuan : tnx for tagging >.<>
-wanqi : haha. tnx for tagging. (:
- alvin : ya lo. tsk tsk. nah. jus jk >.<
- cherlyn :awww.. honey. tnx so much *sob* i oso miss u soo much <3ssssss
- yvonne : ya rite. u r a auntie!!! undeniable fact xD lols. for my own good. sia. i miss u too (:
- E : wad thing familiar? haha =D

Sometimes, when you put on a mask for too long, you will forget what's the real side of you. I forgot who am i....

So what if he is repentant? God knows what he is thinkin. I think the punishment is too light for him. What th f. He's a downright bastard. He deserves to die. Ya rite. Seekin for medication, er, tis trick won't work. Srsly, she is too stupid to believe you. Pity her. If i ever get to see his face again, i will rip him. Cnt believe he was given a third chance. What's justice? Dun tell me what he did n his consequences were justice. They don't care, but what abt them? Srsly, i think the death sentence shld be the only way out can he redeem his wrongdoings. He's a fucker.

I know the truth. Yet i still continuously find some way to be reminded of this painful truth. I am outta my mind.