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*NERDY HOTTIE!
Hey hey. I ain't any nerdy hottie. that's what i AIM to be for the next two years. Studies + looks. How wonderful life will be ~ My name is Eemin aka Jacqueline. Jacqueline is just for those ignorants who doesn't know the pronounciation of my magnficent name. Alright, I am pretty shameless, but i call it humour and confidence. So yeah ~ I can be pretty irrational, insane, hyped up. Yet, it's just facades over facades. You never want to know the down side of me. Sometimes, I get lost in myself(s). Don't get me wrong. I aint any emokid either. I am pretty much an optimist in my pessimistic world. At least, I hope for the best I'm weridly humourous, pretty inperfect in my own perfect way. Good luck! For I'm a tough book to read. i must say, I'm nothing much on firt sight; but i'm definitely not your average girl when you know me. Oh oh and oh, I AM ADDICTED TO MUSIC. MUSIC, IS MY LIFE. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MUSIC. ANY CURE?
-That's me
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The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away



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life will be better in spring

Tuesday, March 10, 2009 || 6:15 AM

hmm.. today quite ok day. mr ng nvr come. studied malay test n oso copied bio notes. th eg esson best ah! everyone acting guai guai reading book. thn lyk got a lo tension le, sudenly anjlica stood up n said : ok, class, emrm.. i forgot to tell u mdm priya not coming today.. it's like so damn OMG u noe. eveyone was lyk erm.. cheering = booing. hahas. saya keyawa terbahat-bahat. lol. dk whether i used malay correct anot ><

i was looking for myself. n i found a demon in me. i was lyk goddam bad u noe. veri veri bad. hais.. bt i realised i wasnt quite hurt these few days wif the demon me... t the feeling is not nice. reali. but all i wantedis to proctect myself. reali didnt mean to hurt anyone i swear. hreby, i apologise to my dearest wanying. i m reali reali sorry, thses few days i m quite bad. self-centered, selfish. so sorry.

hais.. wher m i? idk who i m now. i m turning onto someone idk hu. nn someone who i loathe most. i mus be outa my mind. but i reali cnt stop it. i feel so damn miserable inside tt i found no way to express it. n thn, i feel i m living for others. reali. what th.. hais.. i must as well be dead. i wanted to.. bt i dun dare to.. i m such a coward. bt i cn do it provided someone give me poison, or i stand at the edge n ask someone to push me down the building. bt kinda impossible uh..

It's fear who keeps one frm reachin the ultimate boundary.