life will be better in spring
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 || 6:15 AM
hmm.. today quite ok day. mr ng nvr come. studied malay test n oso copied bio notes. th eg esson best ah! everyone acting guai guai reading book. thn lyk got a lo tension le, sudenly anjlica stood up n said : ok, class, emrm.. i forgot to tell u mdm priya not coming today.. it's like so damn OMG u noe. eveyone was lyk erm.. cheering = booing. hahas. saya keyawa terbahat-bahat. lol. dk whether i used malay correct anot ><
i was looking for myself. n i found a demon in me. i was lyk goddam bad u noe. veri veri bad. hais.. bt i realised i wasnt quite hurt these few days wif the demon me... t the feeling is not nice. reali. but all i wantedis to proctect myself. reali didnt mean to hurt anyone i swear. hreby, i apologise to my dearest wanying. i m reali reali sorry, thses few days i m quite bad. self-centered, selfish. so sorry.
hais.. wher m i? idk who i m now. i m turning onto someone idk hu. nn someone who i loathe most. i mus be outa my mind. but i reali cnt stop it. i feel so damn miserable inside tt i found no way to express it. n thn, i feel i m living for others. reali. what th.. hais.. i must as well be dead. i wanted to.. bt i dun dare to.. i m such a coward. bt i cn do it provided someone give me poison, or i stand at the edge n ask someone to push me down the building. bt kinda impossible uh..
It's fear who keeps one frm reachin the ultimate boundary.