life will be better in spring

on sunday.. went to alumni LUNCH -.- lol. sounds cheapskate n it is. lalala. fun man.. sitting wof ming how, shinggei, zhiye n another sec 4 guy + shawn + viola, shiny, sharlene n anjhana =D lols. lalala

thn ytd went to hci. gosh, so damn malu can. zz. jss de students are so noisy :x

today.. had a good laugh man. toking abt MDM SAMANTHA n MR PRIYA n MDM SYAFIE + another character bt i dun tink i cn put her name up here. hehe do it like a horse. LOLS!

I learnt that people shouldn't be given a chance when they make a mistake. Simply because i wasn't given one too when i make a mistake. I won't forgive anyone. Because no one forgives me. So, don't ever forgive me. Don't.

I really wanted to put down the past. I can't suffer from memory loss. I had to count on myself to forget everything. Just when i thought i had done it, she or him has to remind me of it. Do you know how much effort i had put in? Do you know the painstaking process? You all seems to targeting me. Why must you make me feel naked? You think it is joke, but it isn't. What can i do to convince you of my fatigue? I am really tired. I am holding on. But there's got to be a limit. And you guys are going to cross the line. What else can i do? Do you want me to run onto the highway and let one passing car knock me down? I wish i can do that. But i can't. First of all, it's due to sth personal. Secondly, i may not survive. Though i am not sure whether i want to live on, still, who knows? I still have a lot of unfulfilled wishes. Please, don't mention the past in front of me. Either kill me or shut up.

the day befor ytd, i then know that everything is a lie. To think that i thought i am the big liar, but you are the one. Not me. It's so hard to accept.

somehow i wish i had nth...

Just in two days, i got to know so much things. And all are negative. Nice one uh.. Eff off fuckers and liars. Though i am cursing, but i aint angry. I am very depressed. Very sad. Very emotional. Nvm. At least everything bad had happened. Hope there's more to come.. By then i'll have alr felt numb.

what is self-esteem? tis question make me cry. bcoz.. i reali dk.

i am holding on. still holding on. buit can i give up? i am reali fucking tired.

My self-esteem is hurt again. I m @ my lowest point yet i refuse to break down

if tears were to wash away my sorrow, i wish i had nvr smile befor...