life will be better in spring
Friday, August 29, 2008 || 8:52 PM
Broke down yesterdayt. I really miss them, Really. I wan see them. But cant. I dun mind this. Then i still get scolding. Hais..Then broke down. Then( cant tell). Then go out of school. Walked to jurong green park on the way did some washin of face. In a day, I found out so much things. Dunno why make me so sad. Nvm.
I found myself today. I am ugly stupid petty irresponsible. Quite actually.. So glad i found myself.. Thanks.. Thanks god for lettin me know the truth. How alot ppl hates me.. And finally sed someone down to tell me this fact..Actually to clarify.. I knew it long ago le.
Can i be a ghost thn back to myself.. I wanna know wat he, she, they thinkin.. I wan to know. Then after knowing, i wan go back to eemin. Then make some decisions.. Can ma? Please.. Though i know wad others are thinkin.. I mean tat i petty irresponsible.. Ect. But i wan to know more. I veri greedy de.. Can let me greedy? And being a ghost i dun have to.
Restrict myself. I can say anythin i like without hurtin anyone. I can be flirt. Can like up to 10 ppl at one time.
Can anyone guide me to become a shamless bitch? A veri shameless de.. Someone told me need looks.. Wa..Then forget it.. Cant make it de..Lol. Let's say hello to autistic. World of autistic. Zzzz..Gettin emoier...Not going to reply to any sms except for 5ppl de. Sorry to e others.
I am going crazy le..Dunno y those things make me sad. Jealous? Tat they can be so close?My business? Lol. Tat's why i said i siao le. Can anyone report me to woodbrige hosp? Or at least talk to me. Counsel me. To prevent me from losin my mind.
I am really... Gone case le.. Stupid... Shhh.. Sit up.. I wan e voice in my head to shut uo, Shut uo, Shut up. So.. SIlence. Silence. Silence myself!